from 2009 to 2010!
it's 4.30 am in the morning and its still dark out... but i guess its the jetlag that woke me up so instead of trying very hard to fall asleep again i felt like writing in my newly acquired blog which im still trying to fix up=)
So 2009 huh... its been one of my most eventful years - one that was filled with many surprises!
Looking back at the past term, I feel so blessed because God has turned so many things around for me. He has transformed me in so many ways in the very short period of lets say three months? The change may be big but sometimes when I stopped and thought about it, it is quite hard to recognize myself. For one, im going to Church. I went to a Christian conference. I read the bible. And for the first time, I joined a bible study and a fellowship. He has revealed to me so much that I could no longer deny his existence. And what’s different from before is that I’m doing this all for myself – not for my family, not for my friends but because now I know that God is real. He is living. And most of all He cares. I must say that this has got to be the BEST feeling in the world knowing that there is One above you that controls everything and is always there. And the funniest thing is that it is only six months ago that I was still hiding from my Christian friend at lunch every Thursday because I did not want to go to Awaken, a fellowship she started at school! Hah.
God pursues. He really does.
And realizing this fact has moved me so much.
God does work in miraculous ways and in his timing and in his ways, he pulls you back towards him no matter how far you drift. And thinking back for me, though both my sister and my mom was Christian, I had so many doubts and eventually I stopped everything that was Christian related starting from the beginning of my highschool years. Even my mom stopped talking to me about the bible or anything that was God related - was I stubborn.
But when I look back, some “coincidences” might well be too coincidental to be true. Well for a fact that when my whole group of close friends changed, my new group of friends were ALL Christians. All. Which is quite hard to believe especially when my school is not religious. Of course at the time that didn’t really matter to me. I even went to a Matt Redman concert thinking that my friend got it for free some where… which really wasn’t the case when I found out earlier last school term while skyping with her. I can go on and on… but point is in the very timing even the hardest of hearts would be softened. It does sound cliché doesn’t it? But it is true. Who knew that all of a sudden in a few months I would go from a stubborn skeptic to a believer? Even when I finally stopped and thought about it for a moment, I thought it was a bit strange in a sense and inexplicable because it was going wayyyy too fast but it felt right because I felt that God was guiding me.
I’d also like to take this opportunity to thank everyone (you know who you are) who have been praying for me all along. And for those who are praying for others, don’t stop praying for them! God works in many ways!
Amen!
Well besides me believing in God again, it has been a superb year!
Let’s see… surviving the last round of essays IB mocks orals…then ffor a change of taste…graduating highschool, prom, GRAD TRIP, crazy outward-bound that I managed to get into in the carribeans and university.
Quite a handful isn’t it…
promm
- learn how to dive with a drysuit - hopefully soon because its so cold here and will def be fun!
- pick up some guitar and hopefully can learn some chords so i can play some songs =) - thanks jon for giving me one of your guitars to bring over!
- go to the vancouver aquarium!
- then try to find a job/ summer job at the aquarium :)
- finish up another oil painting for my children collection
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